Sound of a Soul

Yet again! Was this bound to happen? Well that's what life says!
Didn't I foresee this day? Yes, I did; long back in fact!!! Still I held on to it with all my might; unaware of the meaninglessness... Assuming that another individual is my life, that I am living for someone else!
An autopsy of what went wrong is really loathsome, at least at this juncture. I wouldn't want to welter in grief and self pity, coz I have grown strong with time.

Lately, I realized that I have created a glass-misty fence around my mind, an invisible one. This was not built overnight; it was made layer by layer. Escalating distance and separation came as a boon of wisdom with every added layer. This doesn't obscure my vision; I still see many hearts smiling to themselves. Speaking to the breeze and listening to the whispers of the mute ally. But this murky fence has made me invisible to rest of the world. I have no grumble about it, for that was the underlying intention. I heard strange knocks on my glass fence in my dreams. Many a times I felt that the thud on my hazy glass fence sounded familiar. As if somebody from an unknown land, someone who knew that I existed was trying to reach out to me! But now that I am wise enough; I ignored those faint knocks.

After years, when I woke up from a deep siesta, I saw my glass fence wrecked at a corner. I walked up to take a closer look at the damage, I stood amazed. As I drew a finger alongside the damaged glass, my scrutinizing eyes found stains of blood frozen on the cold glass and an almost fading off palm impression below. A strange ache stirred deep in my gut, after years, I realized I am alive!The thought of that untiring effort of a soul to reach out to me, tore me. I felt my heart drumming wildly in my chest. A silent tear trickled down my cheek; did I still smile through that tear?

Inspite of consciously ignoring this silent presence, deep within my soul didn't I know? Of course, I did! Just before another tear could leave my eyes, there came Sunshine, peering through the misty fence; making way to reach me through the broken glass! The tender warmth of Sunshine bringing life back to me and I stand arms wide open to embrace life, for a fresh beginning!!!

Silent Conversations - 29

Sun Wrote:

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
A trigger to that intense hidden passion
A tribute to the creator of a masterpiece,
The masterpiece those loving eyes were…

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
A darkness contrary to darkness itself,
A poet’s inspiration,
A tribute to his aspiration of love…

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
Oh! A prelude to that invaluable blush,
That shying face,
Those fluttering eyelids…
Just completing your life… Like you never knew of…

Angel Replied:

A life time wouldn’t suffice to express how much we love each other...
But the beauty is that we don’t need words!
And we live a million lives in every single second together.

Time

(Dedicated with love to all parents, especially fathers)

Sometimes, it is quite essential that we take a break from the busy work schedule and robotic life. Taking a break doesn’t really mean a short vacation at your favorite hill station, where sleep is absolute bliss! At times life wakes you up from long slumber to gift you precious moments… Spend some quality TIME with your loved ones; for whom you really haven’t devoted much TIME over years…

You bet, we all give at least some amount of TIME to our spouse, children and friends. Sometimes as a responsibility or may be because of the fear of losing them! While our life oscillates between responsibility and fear, many of us have conveniently avoided/ignored those wonderful blessings called PARENTS. Because, when it comes to parents, most of us don’t have the fear of losing them if we don’t devote TIME to them, or may be the responsibility meter dips down. We take them for granted, for we are sure, they will always be there for us. Don’t be surprised if UNCONDITIONAL LOVE doesn’t exist anymore. We don’t have the TIME to VALUE such relationships… Startling fact!!!

Well, came as an awakening to me last summer, when I was with my dad. Dad, my pillar of strength, my biggest inspiration is a busy business man; enthusiastic and energetic even at 60 plus (touch wood). He leaves for work before I wake up; hence it was during evenings we use to spend time together. That evening as usual when dad was back from work, I was waiting for him in the lawn. That’s how I have always been; ever since my childhood.

We set out on a walk that evening all the way to our farmhouse. He appeared to be unusually tensed and lost in some thoughts. The usual defensive statement, “Nothing at all, business chaos you see” was the first answer I got when I asked him for the reason of worry. I just looked at him in his eyes and then, it was a totally different sequence. It was kind of a role reversal. There was a lot more than humungous pressure and stress that’s camouflaged by the term “Work tension”. I saw tears of happiness in my dad’s eyes when he uttered these words after a long conversation, “Daughter, you are the music of my every evening”

Your “TIME” is the best gift you can give to your loved ones. Let this precious gift be given wholeheartedly and may it not be limited to occasions. A bright smile, a word of care, a tender touch…little things makes a beautiful difference. And when these little things are well knitted with thread of LOVE and wrapped in TIME, it becomes a marvelous moment…a moment worth cherishing for a life time…