Unconditionally Yours...

Had I not looked into your deep brown eyes,
I would have never known Life is Beautiful!

Had you not held my hand,
I would have never known the promise of Friendship!

Had I not leaned on your shoulder,
I would have never known the comforting affection!

Had you not embraced me,
I would have never known the meaning of being safe!

Had you not kissed me,
I would have never known what insatiable love is all about!

Had I not met you,
I would have never found my Soul mate!

Had I not been yours,
I would have never known Unconditional Love!

Being yours unconditionally is my Salvation.

Numb...

She knelt before that cremated smile… Wishing the moment would freeze for a while! Unknown whispers whipped in the wind… Untold words tangled her mind. A silent prayer choked her throat… A shrill solitude the winter brought. Flowers freed off her clasp and kissed the grave… And there she stood…pretending brave…

A piece of ma heart!

I was three when I first saw him. A petite life covered in warm blue wraps snuggling next to my mom. I recollect my parents being congratulated for the bundle of joy. Honestly, I didn't like him initially since the entire attention of the family shifted to him. I wondered why every one suddenly forgot me. I was asked not to make noise when he slept while the family enjoyed him cooing and squeeking! That was quite partial I thought... Slowly the realization dawned on me that I had no choice but share my parent's love with him. As days passed I started growing fond of him. I started observing him closely... I looked wonder eyed at his tiny feet kicking me,his delicate fingers clutching my hair. When mom sleeps at noon I use to sneak into the room filled with the fragrance of baby talc and lotion . I loved to watch him sleep... the slightest expressions that varied on his cute face; fascinated me. He was more like my best summer gift; a wonderful little toy!My little brother... we grew up with our share of best cat fights and good times. With passing years,we became best buddies,partners in crime to be precise. Those initial days when I used to pen down little rhymes,I best described him as "a piece of my heart". I had to bribe him with his favourite WWF cards so that he won't let mom know that I got drenched in the rain. He had to bribe me with chocolates if I had to forge mom's signature on the test paper sheets. I recollect those lovely days when I used to walk miles to the only store in town to pick his favourite sugar coated jellies and the happiness in his eyes as he relished them use to heal my tiredness. He eagerly awaited to surprise me with my favourite chocolates every time I visited home during my hostel days. Over years of caring,sharing and little fights; this charming young man has become an indispensable part of my life. Today, he is beaming as he exchange rings with his gorgeous fiancè. As I look at this lovely couple and pray the best of everything for them,my heart murmers..."Brother, you will always remain the most lovable piece of my heart!"

Invincible Smile

Like an ode to that naïve twilight... Like a sonnet to the unblossomed bud... There they stood. Two little hearts canoeing down the river of love... To salvage from perishing time. And they held that undying smile... Their invincible weapon! Fighting dismay, rage and lament... Their smile...was blunting the edges of those sharp memories.

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Sun wrote:

Those warm eyes of yours make me melt like butter under hot sun!
Your lips... Those petals of lotus that just blossomed in the evening shower!
Your smile... Those ripples on the silent moonlit pond!
Your gracious movement... The sway of tall grass, playing with naughty breeze!
Your touch...The kiss of feather falling from heavens!

Angel replied:

It's no lesser than a blessing to be loved by you.
Today, I feel... Our relationship is like that of a candle and its wick!
Every time I see you hurt, I feel the twinge.
When you are burning from within, it's me who would die down.

Frozen Smile!

What's the color of blood,when your heart bleeds?
Barren black, rustic red or colorless like tears?
When you feel the chill cold biting into your bone and your eyes set far ...
Staring at the midnight darkness...
and you stay arms wide open, to embrace the numb nothingness of life...
When you feel you are losing your mind to the eternal black hole..and
you still hold that undying subtle smile on your face...
A FROZEN smile to deceive the world!!!

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Sun wrote:

In this beautiful drizzle of love...
A newborn droplet perched precariously on her lovely long eyelashes..
A pearl shaped diamond...
Makin the stars shy...
Glistenin away the radiance of her charm...

Angel replied:

It's like the deepest desire to give up everything I have... to be with you...
It's no more gravity that holds me to the planet,its you...
It's no more the food that keeps me alive,but I feed on the insatiable love you give me ...my soul.
I just wanna smile,live,love and die for you...with you...all at once!

The journey continues...

Silence...conquering a corner of her heart,
Adamant past, loathing to part.
Yet, the journey continues...

Wispy clouds hovering at a distance over the hills,
Bleeding soul and memories that kills.
Yet, the journey continues...

Heart plummeted at the thought of a smile,
And a nightingale lost its voice for a while.
Yet, the journey continues...

A bubble of pain rose in her chest,
She grinned and pushed it back to rest.
Yet, the journey continues...

Just another me!

I don't know you as you;
I know you as just another me...
I see myself, in your dreamy brown eyes.
I feel myself breathe, in your every single sighs.
I feel the warmth of your love ,even before you smile.
I can sense what you feel, far from a mile.
I can hear your voice and that of your heart.
I know it slices us when we have to stay apart.
I understand every word you speak.
I understand your silence in its peak.
I bleed when I know you are hurt.
I feel your twinge and my tears spurt.
I am not away from you,never ...
I live within you,ever so near ,forever.
I know your arms are my safest shelter.
I know our unique love is like ice that swelter!
I know we are not two different individuals...
I realise,we are the pious of eachother's souls.
I don't love you as you;i love you as just another me...

Sound of a Soul

Yet again! Was this bound to happen? Well that's what life says!
Didn't I foresee this day? Yes, I did; long back in fact!!! Still I held on to it with all my might; unaware of the meaninglessness... Assuming that another individual is my life, that I am living for someone else!
An autopsy of what went wrong is really loathsome, at least at this juncture. I wouldn't want to welter in grief and self pity, coz I have grown strong with time.

Lately, I realized that I have created a glass-misty fence around my mind, an invisible one. This was not built overnight; it was made layer by layer. Escalating distance and separation came as a boon of wisdom with every added layer. This doesn't obscure my vision; I still see many hearts smiling to themselves. Speaking to the breeze and listening to the whispers of the mute ally. But this murky fence has made me invisible to rest of the world. I have no grumble about it, for that was the underlying intention. I heard strange knocks on my glass fence in my dreams. Many a times I felt that the thud on my hazy glass fence sounded familiar. As if somebody from an unknown land, someone who knew that I existed was trying to reach out to me! But now that I am wise enough; I ignored those faint knocks.

After years, when I woke up from a deep siesta, I saw my glass fence wrecked at a corner. I walked up to take a closer look at the damage, I stood amazed. As I drew a finger alongside the damaged glass, my scrutinizing eyes found stains of blood frozen on the cold glass and an almost fading off palm impression below. A strange ache stirred deep in my gut, after years, I realized I am alive!The thought of that untiring effort of a soul to reach out to me, tore me. I felt my heart drumming wildly in my chest. A silent tear trickled down my cheek; did I still smile through that tear?

Inspite of consciously ignoring this silent presence, deep within my soul didn't I know? Of course, I did! Just before another tear could leave my eyes, there came Sunshine, peering through the misty fence; making way to reach me through the broken glass! The tender warmth of Sunshine bringing life back to me and I stand arms wide open to embrace life, for a fresh beginning!!!

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Sun Wrote:

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
A trigger to that intense hidden passion
A tribute to the creator of a masterpiece,
The masterpiece those loving eyes were…

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
A darkness contrary to darkness itself,
A poet’s inspiration,
A tribute to his aspiration of love…

Eyes…
Those lovely black eyes,
Oh! A prelude to that invaluable blush,
That shying face,
Those fluttering eyelids…
Just completing your life… Like you never knew of…

Angel Replied:

A life time wouldn’t suffice to express how much we love each other...
But the beauty is that we don’t need words!
And we live a million lives in every single second together.

Time

(Dedicated with love to all parents, especially fathers)

Sometimes, it is quite essential that we take a break from the busy work schedule and robotic life. Taking a break doesn’t really mean a short vacation at your favorite hill station, where sleep is absolute bliss! At times life wakes you up from long slumber to gift you precious moments… Spend some quality TIME with your loved ones; for whom you really haven’t devoted much TIME over years…

You bet, we all give at least some amount of TIME to our spouse, children and friends. Sometimes as a responsibility or may be because of the fear of losing them! While our life oscillates between responsibility and fear, many of us have conveniently avoided/ignored those wonderful blessings called PARENTS. Because, when it comes to parents, most of us don’t have the fear of losing them if we don’t devote TIME to them, or may be the responsibility meter dips down. We take them for granted, for we are sure, they will always be there for us. Don’t be surprised if UNCONDITIONAL LOVE doesn’t exist anymore. We don’t have the TIME to VALUE such relationships… Startling fact!!!

Well, came as an awakening to me last summer, when I was with my dad. Dad, my pillar of strength, my biggest inspiration is a busy business man; enthusiastic and energetic even at 60 plus (touch wood). He leaves for work before I wake up; hence it was during evenings we use to spend time together. That evening as usual when dad was back from work, I was waiting for him in the lawn. That’s how I have always been; ever since my childhood.

We set out on a walk that evening all the way to our farmhouse. He appeared to be unusually tensed and lost in some thoughts. The usual defensive statement, “Nothing at all, business chaos you see” was the first answer I got when I asked him for the reason of worry. I just looked at him in his eyes and then, it was a totally different sequence. It was kind of a role reversal. There was a lot more than humungous pressure and stress that’s camouflaged by the term “Work tension”. I saw tears of happiness in my dad’s eyes when he uttered these words after a long conversation, “Daughter, you are the music of my every evening”

Your “TIME” is the best gift you can give to your loved ones. Let this precious gift be given wholeheartedly and may it not be limited to occasions. A bright smile, a word of care, a tender touch…little things makes a beautiful difference. And when these little things are well knitted with thread of LOVE and wrapped in TIME, it becomes a marvelous moment…a moment worth cherishing for a life time…

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Sun Wrote

Angel…You are…
The epitome of beauty
The symbol of chastity
The mascot to all smiles
The mischief hidden in a naughty kid’s eyes
The sunrise killing the darkest night
The cool breeze over calm waters
The fire in the Artic
The colour to blind eyes
The last breath to a perishing life
The touch of love
The music of my heartbeat
The kiss of youth
The flavor to inspiration
The inspiration to madness
My Everything………………………

Angel replied:

I love you and I love everything about you…
And I love you so much that I am so selfish about you!
I love your eyes… When I look into your dreamy brown eyes,
I wish I would drown in its depths!
I love your voice… Oh I love your voice when you call my name,
I lose myself in the symphony of your voice when you sing for me,
I wish I could kiss your voice!
I love your smile… Oh your smile that takes my breath away…
I wish I could clasp your lively smile in my palm…
So that whenever I cry and open my palm to wipe my tears,
I would see your smile and my tears would just disappear!

I don't miss you!!!

(Dedicated with Love to a long lost pal)

With every single drizzle,
When the rain drops sizzle,
I don’t miss you…

With every cool breeze,
When there is a lovely haze,
I don’t miss you…

When “Sunshine” is bright,
When there is day full of light,
I don’t miss you…

When nostalgia knocks,
When memory chokes,
I don’t miss you…

‘Coz, I carry you in my heart,
I can never let you part.
You are never dead,
You are never out of my head...
I carry your love with me
Forever this way it be.

You still smile, live and dream in me, as a part of me.
I don’t miss you…
You will live, as long as I breathe...
I just don’t miss you!!!

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Sun wrote:

Without you, every song so meaningless
Every word sounds like such a lie
Everything that I feel, feels so coarse...
Every second, a year of separation...
You are my strength; you are my insatiable desire to live
You are that one reason I am dying…to live all my lives all at once...
You are that one desire that revives me from my long slumber
You are my ever seeked madness...
You are my everything...

Angel Replied

Your arms are my safest shelter
Your shoulders are my best cradle...
Your eyes are my ray of hope...
Your heart is my ultimate destination.
Your soul is the reason for my existance.
I am nothing without YOU

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Sun Wrote:
And I looked at her lovely flowing hair...
I was never a person to be captivated by hair..
But her hair, such beautiful hair; which spoke to the breeze…
Which held me prisoner…
I stood Rooted looking at her, setting her hair right.
Such amazing hair that was like a silky black veil.. Jus perfect..

Angel Wrote:

His eyes...those twin brown pools reflect a million thoughts that crosses his mind...
Sometimes, I see them engrossed in recollecting old memories...
Then as if awakened by a soothing breeze, causing petite waves in the pool...
As a result of some naughty thought, those eyes would gleam; like little ambers...
And when sweetness in him arouses, I see indescribable calmness in them
And then in a split second they turn icy cold…trying hard to hide a pain squeezing from within.
And when, at once love lingers his mind; I see beautiful ripples in the pool…
Drizzle of love, rippling down through the memory membrane...
Now those eyes shine with the brightness of a million golden rays of sun passing through a prism...
And when those eyes capture mine, I stay captivated in a spell so fine...
All I see is undying passion burning in them, revealing to me the true depth of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and togetherness for ETERNITY…

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Sun wrote:

The mirror shys looking at you,
the beauty of my love...
The world will not understand my love for you..
Your presence is liberating..
your absence is an abyss..
your smile is the morning sunshine..
Look in to my eyes,
and tell me your not the sparkle in it....
look at my smiling face..
and tell me your not the reason...
Look at me being lost..
and tell me you'll find me dreamin of you..
Hear me breathing hard..
Tell me it wasn’t you who stole my breath away...

Angel replied:

I don’t need a mirror to look at when I have your eyes,
Those dreamy eyes… I see your love for me gleaming in it…
I know the world wouldn’t understand our love…
Coz this is not earthy.., it’s heavenly… Divine as we call it…
Our love that aein’t binding, but liberating
Am I the smile on your lips?
If so, the smile you hold is a small gift from my soul to yours…
Am I the sparkle in your eyes?
If so, it’s the result of those infinite dreams our love weave…
Are you lost in my dreams?
If so, dreams are those unspoken wishes of our mind…
Did I steal your breath away?
If so,indubitably I will breathe back life into you…

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(This is an extremely special conversation between Sun and Angel… 'Coz, this is an incomplete conversation... I wouldn’t be able to segregate the lines written by Sun and those by Angel…for they are Soul mates who share similar thoughts and the rhythm of those hearts beat as one…)

Does something happen to you when I look deep into your eyes…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
My heart is filled with meaningful sighs……

Does something happen to you when I hold your hand…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
Time just feels like slipping sand...

Does something happen to you when I look at you smile…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
It adds meaning to life’s every mile…

Does something happen to you when I run my hand through your hair…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
It feels like life has been so fair…

Does something happen to you when I hold you in my arms…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
I feel I am saved from all harms…

Does something happen to you when I whisper something to your ears…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
I feel I am far from my worst fears…

Does something happen to you when I tell you a sweet nothing…?
Because it does to me, when you do……
I feel I found bliss in everything…

Does something happen to you when I lean on your shoulder…?
Because it does to me, when you do……
Your presence makes me live life bolder…

Does something happen to you when I caress your face…?
Because it does to me, when you do……
I feel like a flower being fondled by haze…

Does something happen to you when I lie on your lap…?
Because it does to me, when you do……
I feel naïve, lost, childlike in a nap…

Does something happen to you when I kiss you…?
Because it does to me, when you do…
I pray that I would never miss you…

Does something happen to you when you come dangerously close to me..?
Because it does to me, when you do...
I wish that this we could forever be...

I' ve been waiting....

I am waiting for you...
I am nothing without you!
Nothing looks great,
Baby is this my fate?

Come back to me my love,
I am waiting for you.
I am nothing without you.

Without you, the dawn is lifeless...
Without you, my life is meaningless...
My eyes yearn to see you,
My arms crave to hold you.

Come back to me my love...
I am waiting for you,
I am nothing without you.

All the day, I think of you
All my night,I dream of you
Before this loneliness finally kills me
Kiss me back to life...

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Angel wrote:

You have painted my life with colors of love...
Colors, that I was blind to... till I met you...
I value you, more than my life
I want to die with you... in your arms.

Sun replied:

Colors of love in my life...
I dream of you as my wife.
My love for you is so true...
I can’t think of life without you.